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Are you trying to seduce me Miss Lora? |
Narrative Voice and
Masculinity in Junot Diaz’s ‘Miss Lora’
The
second-person narrative voice in Junot Diaz’s collection of short stories, This
is How You Lose Her, should not be overlooked simply as a stylistic
flourish; rather, the pronoun “You” is an effective rhetorical technique
allowing the narrator to self-fashion his own identity through a retrospective
and critical lens. Many of the stories revolve around the character of Yunior
and his failed relationships, especially ‘Miss Lora’, an unsettling yet
emotionally resonant account of his sexual relationship with an older woman.
This particular story marks a crucial turning point in Yunior’s life as he
navigates family tragedy, his first love and community. With the recent death
of his older brother, Rafa, who personified Dominican machismo, Yunior
struggles to assert this inherited hegemonic masculinity over the more dominant
Miss Lora. Additionally, the Dominican cultural ethos that fosters
hypermasculinity prevents him from fully articulating his feelings and
processing the painful grief from the insurmountable loss of his brother to
cancer. Hence, the second-person narrative voice provides Yunior an opportunity
to achieve catharsis and heal through the power of writing by maintaining a
critical distance from himself.
Diaz
is less concerned with establishing narrative continuity throughout these
stories in favor of sketching out Yunior’s bildungsroman--namely, his
complex emotional and psychological development from adolescence into
adulthood. Instead of being written in the first-person that might otherwise
come across as solipsistic, Diaz evokes playful humor and wit as Yunior becomes
the narrator of his own life while addressing himself self-reflexively with the
pronoun “You.” Diaz seamlessly conflates the subjective with the objective so
that it becomes ambiguous whether Yunior as the narrator is reconstructing the
past from an empirical perspective or through a literary imagination. As a
writer himself, this elevated perspective is advantageous since Yunior is keen
on examining his tumultuous life through reflective introspection, especially
in understanding the “how” rather than “why” so many failed relationships with
women like Miss Lora ended in heartbreak.
This story begins with Yunior in the
present contemplating the ramifications of a question his past self would later
ask himself about his relationship with Miss Lora, which in essence becomes the
short story: “Years later you would wonder if it hadn't been for your brother,
would you have done it?” (149). Rafa’s influence on Yunior’s life and masculine
identity in the Dominican diaspora is made explicit right from the opening
rhetorical question. Within this specifically framed narrative structure,
Yunior in the present becomes the omniscient narrator as he re-examines past
experiences to figure out the manner or conditions behind “how” these different
relationships with women inevitably resulted in loss. One way to grasp Diaz’s
methodology is to distinguish Yunior as a self-conscious narrator interrogating
his former self with what literary critic and scholar Wayne Booth refers to as
“aesthetic distance” (156). Indeed, Yunior’s second-person narrative voice
exists in this liminal space between objective and subjective reality that
often becomes blurred. Since the narratee is himself, Yunior the “author”
narrates a highly self-aware diegesis; that is to say, he is conscious of
constructing his own personal narrative. An overt linguistic narcissism is
engendered by this modality with particular emphasis on the transformative
function of language. By establishing this “aesthetic distance” between his
present and past self, Yunior attempts to achieve a certain level of closure or
perhaps even catharsis through the creative writing process.
Moreover, Diaz effectively critiques hegemonic notions of Dominican masculinity through Yunior’s various relationships and sexual experiences with women. The narrator reflects on his younger days during those impressionable teenage years when hormones were raging: “You were at an age where you could fall in love with a girl over an expression, over a gesture. That’s what happened with your girlfriend, Paloma--she stooped to pick up her purse and your heart flew out of you. That’s what happened with Miss Lora, too” (154). To simply label Yunior as a typical male teenager obsessed with sex would be to miss the important underlying subtext--he is trying to follow in the footsteps of his older brother and father who personified Dominican machismo. Yunior is sexually frustrated with Paloma and feels utterly rejected since she constantly refuses to sleep with him. For example, he makes a sexist comment about Paloma not conforming to cultural stereotypes: “Only Puerto Rican girl on earth who wouldn’t give up the ass for any reason” (155). Yunior’s misogyny towards women is indicative of gendered cultural norms and remains consistent throughout most of these stories in the collection. The narrator self-fashions a Dominican masculine identity by adopting ubiquitous and culturally imposed gender scripts. Yunior’s refusal to eschew his inherited Dominican machismo inevitably leads to Paloma leaving him.
Yet, early on in their relationship, she still seeks intimacy but is afraid of getting pregnant. Her future plans do not revolve around having children and struggling in poverty, which happens to be the case for many young Latin-Caribbean women such as her mother. She lives in a tiny cramped apartment with four younger siblings and is focused on making a better life for herself and family. Paloma is hardworking and determined to achieve a certain level of social mobility by pursuing higher education: “Imagine if I don’t get in anywhere, she said. You’d still have me, you tried to reassure her, but Paloma looked at you like the apocalypse would be preferable” (150). Paloma is a strong independent woman with enough foresight to recognize that Yunior is only interested in having sex with her rather than focusing on building a life together. The narrator humorously pokes fun at his former self for even trying to convince Paloma that he is serious about their relationship and will take care of her needs. She is keenly aware of his lascivious mind and prurient interests, even warning him about Miss Lora who has built a reputation for being a promiscuous woman or sucia (slang for “filthy” or “dirty” with lewd connotations): “You’d better not fuck her” (157). Paloma consistently undermines Yunior’s tentative masculine authority and remains steadfast in her convictions. Of course, despite this ultimatum, Yunior still goes ahead and cheats on her with Miss Lora, a schoolteacher in her mid-forties who also lives in the same neighborhood. Both Paloma and Miss Lora highlight the different ways in which Latin-Caribbean women subvert the hierarchical masculinization of power. Moreover, they refuse to merely assume a passive role and maintain control over their own sexuality.
The
gender dynamics in this story are not entirely fixated on women being sexually
obedient towards men in accordance with patriarchal gender discourses. Rather,
Diaz emphasizes that while Yunior tends to embody this norm, he also ironically
occupies a more submissive role, especially with Miss Lora since she is the one
who seduces him and readily asserts more power in the relationship. He can
barely comprehend the unorthodox situation of having an older woman being
attracted to him but is more than willing to see it through if it means the
possibility of sex: “It is the first time any girl ever wanted you. And so you
sit with it. Let it roll around in the channels of your mind. This is nuts, you
say to yourself” (156). Despite having reservations, Miss Lora’s sexual allure
is far too tempting. However, it is important to note that Yunior is not
initially attracted to her on a physical level, perhaps suggesting that they
both share a much deeper and emotional connection: “Miss Lora was too skinny.
Had no hips whatsoever. No breasts, either, no ass, even her hair failed to
make the grade. She had her eyes, sure, but what she was most famous for in the
neighborhood were her muscles” (153-154). Notice that Yunior’s superficial
attitude towards Miss Lora (including women in general) also shows that she
does not conform to specific female gender roles or feminine standards of
beauty since she is perceived as being masculine for having a muscular body.
The
yearning for a physical relationship with Paloma and being rejected perhaps
initially attracts Yunior to Miss Lora. However, it is their mutual interest in
post-apocalyptic science fiction that draws them closer together. The story
takes place in 1985 during the height of the Cold War when nuclear annihilation
seemed inevitable. After the recent death of his brother, Yunior is both
haunted by the impending apocalypse along with Rafa’s ghostly presence. His
dreamlike visions of the world coming to an end can be linked to the inability
to properly process his grief along with repressed feelings of loss and guilt.
Suffering from depression and feeling isolated from those around him, Yunior
misguidedly seeks solace in Miss Lora: “Maybe if you were someone else you
would have the discipline to duck the whole thing but you are your father’s son
and your brother’s brother” (158). According to the narrator, the decision to
sleep with the older woman is already predetermined because of his cultural
inheritance where Dominican men are socially conditioned to epitomize sexual
virility. Once again, Yunior’s second-person narrative voice is highly critical
of his younger self for upholding hegemonic notions of Dominican masculinity.
In essence, this narrative technique provides Yunior with enough critical
distance for the opportunity to critique his own character flaws as a young man
struggling to assert his manhood:
"Both your father and your brother were sucios.
Shit, your father used to take you on his pussy runs, leave you in the car
while he ran up into cribs to bone his girlfriends. Your brother was no better,
boning girls in the bed next to yours. Sucios of the worst kind and now it’s
official: you are one, too. You had hoped the gene missed you, skipped a
generation, but clearly you were kidding yourself." (161)
Here, the narrator
articulates young Yunior’s inner conflict between embracing his own
individualism and self-fashioning an identity that embodies Dominican machismo.
On the surface, he projects hypermasculinity but underneath that exterior front
is a sensitive and impressionable science-fiction nerd who loves
post-apocalyptic movies. Despite efforts to distance himself from being a
“sucio” like his father and brother, Yunior cannot fully renounce this
hegemonic masculinity that he considers to be genetic. The older Yunior is
condescending towards his younger self for being naive and thinking that he
would avoid becoming a womanizer just like the other Dominican men in his
family. While he legitimizes his masculinity by having sex with Miss Lora,
Yunior also fails to realize that she is the one using him for her own sexual
fulfillment. After several romantic encounters she quickly leaves him for an
older gentleman and eventually moves away once Yunior graduates high-school
where he never sees or hears from her again. Yunior is heartbroken and angry at
Miss Lora but these feelings are repressed since he conforms to the ideologies
of Dominican machismo. Thus, it is only through the second-person narrative
voice that a more mature Yunior emerges and offers perspicacious insight into
his own shortcomings as an emotionally vulnerable youth.
This
dichotomy between Yunior as the narrator and narratee focalized through a
second-person narrative voice highlights his self-fashioning of identity. He
learns about himself by reconstructing his own personal narrative and telling
himself this story. Through this creative process, Yunior develops a deeper
understanding of himself, especially in relation to hegemonic notions of
Dominican masculinity. Moreover, both Miss Lora and Paloma represent female
resistance against such rigid gender norms. Having gone through such tremendous
loss, whether it be the death of his brother or the tumultuous relationship
with Miss Lora, this narrative framework provides Yunior with a literary space
for artistic and emotional expression.